I've been feeling the blues lately. Without Cisca at home and with the knowledge that she's gravely sick, I'm starting to have a scenario of having a life without a dog. I really can't imagine what kind of life it would be. I was miserable and grew maddened without my Cassandra. To face life without your best friend is just plain harrowing. Should I love and adopt again? Do I have the time for a career and a dog?
Cisca took most of my time, and I thank her for that. However I'd like to go forward with my career. But when Cicsa get's back, I'll devote more than 100% of my time with her. I'm scared of seeing her convulse again. I really don't know if I should go ahead with life with a shelter dog. I feel so conflicted. Maybe I need more time to think this through. I know that this is a test from God. He's testing to see how committed I am to loving someone. Cisca, I won't give up on you.
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